“Yeah, she does, buddy.” I put him again down and he goes again to stomping on blocks with T-rex.

“Don’t wind him up,” Maddie chides after I kiss her on the cheek. “He will get so excited if you’re round.”

“Displaying off,” Allegra agrees. I greet her too.

“How’s it going at the moment?” I smile at Mother, however don’t kiss her. I can inform she doesn’t acknowledge me at the moment and I don’t need to make issues worse.

“Going good,” Maddie says. I sit down and watch Stefania play blocks with the littles. “Renzo hasn’t labored himself up right into a frothing fury but, which is uncommon.”

I elevate my eyebrows. “It’s already previous 9 within the morning and he hasn’t had at the least one meltdown? That’s a brand new report.”

“Don’t you be fast to guage,” Allegra stated, jutting a finger at me. “You’re simply as unhealthy.”

“You’re not improper,” I admit with a shrug. “The place’s your man?”

“Work. You already know, what you have to be doing?”

“Ah, Allegra, I’m so completely satisfied we didn’t get married.”

She rolls her eyes at me. “I thank God each day.”

I lean again in my chair. The women return to chatting and I watch my little sister enjoying with my niece and nephew. The morning is shiny, the solar’s cresting the home, and despite the fact that Mother isn’t doing nice, at the least she appears comfy. The backyard’s sprouting flowers, a flood of them in shiny colours; a number of butterfly bushes are scattered throughout. Mine’s on the far finish of the property. Maddie insists that everybody within the household will get one, together with the littles. Brando had one hell of a time planting his, or at the least throwing dust at his mom. The little scamp.

I crave this. It’s unusual, sitting right here on this chair, doing nothing however observing my household, however I give it some thought on a regular basis. How peaceable issues have been ever since Maddie got here into our lives. Now Allegra’s right here, and the children, and it’s solely gotten higher. Mother won’t ever be the identical, however at the least she’s steady. The infants are rising quick, and even Stefania’s dwelling from college.

Molly would like it right here. I believe she would, anyway. I may see our child rising up with Cassie and Brando, working across the Rossi home, getting misplaced within the bushes and the flowers, enjoying tag within the weeds and the woods. Molly may sit with the ladies and speak about nothing, or she may sit in my lap in my workplace and distract me from no matter I needs to be doing. It hurts, how a lot I need that.

I almost married Allegra. It was an organized factor. I by no means felt something for her and he or she by no means felt something for me, however there have been a number of days after I thought I used to be going to have a spouse, and I appreciated the concept. Then it was taken from me, and I’m completely satisfied that occurred—she’s an ideal match with Gian—however it left a gap in my life.

Solely it’s a gap that Molly can’t ever fill.

The others would by no means enable it. Renzo would kill me if he knew that I acquired an Irish woman pregnant. She’s not within the clan, however she’s acquired clan ties—her uncle, her cousin, possibly extra, I have to look into it—and that’s unhealthy sufficient. However the battle has touched everybody, and I don’t assume she’d be welcome right here, even when she’s harmless.

There are the Capos and the troopers to consider. How would they react if their underboss married an Irish woman? Whereas they’ve been out bleeding and dying on the streets, I spend all my time getting my dick sucked by the enemy? They’ll be furious. We’ll have a fucking civil battle on our fingers on prime of the battle we’re already combating. It’s unhealthy sufficient Dante is aware of I slept with Molly and he’s conscious that I’ve been making an attempt to see her once more. But when he learns that she’s carrying my child?

I like my household. I like my brothers and my sister and my niece and nephew. I like my poor mom. However they are going to take Molly away from me.

I advised her I’d maintain her, and I meant it. I simply don’t understand how I can try this proper now when all people continues to be so rattling uncooked from every part that’s occurred.

“Saully!” Brando’s standing on the prime of the steps wanting again over his shoulder. Stefania’s proper there, ensuring he doesn’t fall. “Come play.”

“Can’t, little dude.” I get to my toes. “I’ve to work.”

“‘Kay, bye.” Brando jumps down the steps and Stefania catches him, cursing on the little beast.

“Warn me subsequent time!” she says, swinging him round earlier than serving to Cassie down. The three of them disappear into the backyard I watch them go, imagining what it could be wish to stroll on the market with Molly and my very own little child.

The thought breaks my fucking coronary heart—as a result of it’ll by no means occur.

Chapter 8

Molly

I stare on the water stain on my ceiling. Nana’s within the kitchen watching HGTV on her little tv. She’s at all times watching HGTV. I believe it’s a present about outdated homes—I hear them mentioning pipes and electrical quite a lot of instances. I attempt to tune it out, however Nana’s my alarm clock. When she’s up, everybody else is up too.

I’m completely satisfied I advised Saul.

It’s a weight off my again. However now there’s a brand new weight within the type of his completely insane response. You’re mine now. Who the hell says one thing like that to a scared, pregnant woman? I stored my chin up and didn’t present it, however I’m internally freaking out.

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