Gotta go. I’ll see you tonight.

CHAPTER 11

Nolan

“There’s no have to panic,” Allie mentioned calmly as I paced throughout my bed room.

Her disembodied voice was not serving to issues as she watched me from FaceTime like I used to be some anxious animal.

As a result of I’m an anxious animal.

“In fact, there’s a have to panic! I haven’t been on a date in like 5 years, Allie. I would like… I would like this to go nicely, you understand. Not simply because it’s Dawson, however…”

As a result of I have to know I’m not a whole failure of a human being.

“I believed you mentioned it wasn’t a date. That it was only a foolish guess. That it’s simply you besting him and getting your reward.”

I huffed out a groan of defeat. “I do know what I mentioned, however…”

Reality was, up till I’d texted Dawson, I used to be content material to imagine it was just a few foolish guess, nothing to get labored up over. I’d placed on some good garments, smile, and revel in wherever we had been going solely as a result of it was an evening out with the person I’ve been pining over for the final two years, and fairly frankly, I used to be beginning to assume Karla was proper. Possibly I did want a break, perhaps I did have to loosen up.

However after Dawson’s weirdly flirtatious texts earlier about ensuring I regarded good, how he’d referred to as me child… telling me to be prepared when he picked me up.

Nicely, it sort of seemed like perhaps this was a date, which I knew was loopy. In any case, Dawson Richards may have any man he wished. He’d solely must blink they usually’d say, “Sure, Daddy, take me residence and wreck me.”

Myself included.

I’d gained the race truthful and sq., however as I second-guessed the whole lot in my closet earlier, I felt extra like a loser than a winner in something.

I’m so out of my league right here.

“Then why do I really feel like a high-schooler going out with the captain of the soccer workforce?” I grumbled as I smoothed the entrance of my mild blue button down for the hundredth time in an hour.

Gazing myself within the mirror, I needed to admit I did look good. My shirtsleeves had been rolled as much as the elbows, which I felt confirmed off my arms properly, particularly since I’d been figuring out much more for the reason that starting of the 12 months. I wasn’t constructed like Dawson or the opposite firefighters, however I preferred the place my definition was going, and I knew if I stored it up, it could solely get higher.

I stared at my mirror picture, my pale pores and skin contrasting the peerlessly crisp pale blue shirt and a pleasant tailor-made pair of slacks, my darkish hair swept again simply sufficient to appear to be I hadn’t spent a half hour strategically arranging it in entrance of my toilet mirror. Even my glasses regarded good with the outfit. It was a easy look, however I’d discovered by the years that typically easy was finest. It’s typically understated, however I’d gotten by loads of weddings, cocktail events, and enterprise conferences with that outfit.

As I checked out myself, I felt a pang in my coronary heart. I wished to look greater than good. I wished to appear to be somebody who could possibly be on a date with Mr. March.

I wished to look horny.

I wished to really feel horny.

Sigh.

That was once I heard the knock on my door, which made me practically bounce out of my garments and pores and skin as my gaze flashed to my digital clock. It was solely 5 fifty-three.

He’s a pair minutes early.

I ran to seize my telephone from its stand, Allie’s eyes lighting up with pleasure.

“Holy shit, he’s right here…” I gulped, watching Allie smile ear to ear.

“You’re going to have a good time, Nolan. I promise. Simply be your self.”

I wanted I could possibly be anybody else, actually.

Somebody whose coronary heart wasn’t able to beat out of his chest with nervousness proper about now.

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